[01:15] Jilli: well it was just something we were talking about, we talk about lots of stuff, like last time we talked about how scientology is fucknuts crazy
[01:16] John: I'm a scientologist.
[01:17] Jilli: no you're not get out
[01:17] John: Yesgfalksjggkldfg
[01:17] John: Not even over the internet
[01:17] John: Can I keep up something so dumb
[01:17] John: No
[01:17] Jilli: hahaha
[01:17] John: Fuckkk
[01:17] John: I should have taken a moment to think it through
[01:18] John: Taken advantage of the 'military is full of conservative religious folks' thing
[01:18] John: Said that "At first I wasn't really into it, but I went to a couple gatherings with my bosses, and it just CLICKED"
[01:18] Jilli: fffffffffffff
[01:19] John: "Why do you say it's crazy"
[01:19] John: "You aren't one of those four chonners are you"
[01:19] Jilli: HA HA
[01:19] John: In hindsight, this could have ruled


[01:34] John: Now you know
[01:34] John: for a while just recently
[01:34] John: While playing online shooting games
[01:34] John: I used the name
[01:34] John: A BIG GAY GOKU
[01:34] Jilli: hahahha
[01:35] John: the caps are crucial
[01:35] John: I still have permanent scars, I think, from playing a shooter when I was like 14
[01:35] John: and somebody named DRACULA LONG DICK followed me from server to server for like half an hour
[01:36] Jilli: I don't think I can convey how hard I just laughed
[01:36] John: My hope is that I can scar someone else similarly

So I'm looking at old character stuff from when I used to play on MUSHs. If you've never played on one, you have to understand, the description of your character is like, SUPER IMPORTANT. It basically determines whether or not people want to play with you. So people get incredibly competitive and focused on making their description AS ALLURING AS POSSIBLE language wise. From there it's a slippery slope into purple prose. Here's the description of a character I came up with in 2005. ( What in god's name is goin' on here? )

God. Anyway.

The Omegle Meme.

It's kind of funny what people will take SUPER SERIOUSLY when it's just a silly game. That might sound like a rehashing of "pretendy funtimes" but it isn't; talking to innocent people while pretending to be your character is a harmless prank with no malicious intent. Nobody gets hurt. Most of them don't even get irritated. Hell, they don't even know what's going on. That's... the funny part?

I love that Izzy and Sanc can get all up in arms about the way we ostensibly treat people while at the same time treating [NAME OMITTED IN INTEREST OF LESSENING THE SHIT STIRRING] like crap.

[23:55] K: i like this attitude that trolling is like
[23:55] K: this LIFE RUINING EVENT
[23:55] A: obviously it was done to be mean-spirited and jerky to people, and not because real people interacting with fake characters is fucking hilarious

new aim: in thessaly

[11:38] <Mattybee> god damnit Jill
[11:38] <Mattybee> I am watching CSI
[11:38] <Mattybee> and I cannot watch Greg without thinking
[11:38] <Mattybee> WHO LEFT PEE ON MY DESK

My poetry teacher Jamey once wrote "you are wasting your life and considerable talent".

yeah. okay.

Cow, it is nearly 4AM. Why do you moo?

My neighbor across the street whose wife died keeps mowing his lawn.

The neighbor's cows are mooing frantically. They sound seriously distressed. (No, there's no bull in there with them x_x.) I kind of want to walk over and see what's going on, except lalala trespassing. But... they sound so upset. Not their usual chorus which is, I assume, either "milk me" or "I've fallen and now I'm stuck".

Well, they are quieter now, so perhaps they are okay.

:(

As I scroll through a bunch of icons of Chinese actor Andy Lau, I think to myself, "He's very distinguished looking!" Immediately after I think that: this icon (oods-n-ends @ IJ).

What is this I don't even

If I'm straightforward, I'm bitchy and rude and scary.
If I'm polite, I'm passive-aggressive and lying.
If I say, "come ask me questions, I promise I won't bite", I'm an attentionwhore and nobody asks.
If I keep silent and mind my own business, I end up on anonmeme.

RICHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRDS
Boy, I hope this entry gets trolled.

He's not just a pretty face! Well, to me, he's not even that, but. Different strokes and so on.

nolanknowsbest - I'm gonna have to keep tabs on this one. Tim is older than Babs. There's nothing inherently wrong with that, I would just prefer it otherwise. See, this is the problem you run into while trying to integrate comicsverse Batfamily with Nolanverse. You need to do it together, you can't just create characters separately and expect it to work. Or, you know, you totally can, but I'm just going to whine about it.

There's a balance between preserving key components of their backstory vs. finding them a new, workable, and interesting place in Nolanverse canon. I'm biased in favor of the backstories because that's where I find the most interesting parts - the roots - of a character's personality to be. Of course there are plenty of other contributing factors, but with Batfamily, so much of who they are and who they become are dependent on one another. I think there's definitely a way to preserve the spirit of a character without following every last letter of their comic canon. What I disagree on is the ratio. Which is why I started my little project in the first place, but I don't know what for, as I don't write fic. Haw haw oh well.

Don't. Or rather, make sure you can take care of yourself, because you never know when responsibilities will suddenly fall to you. Because you won't be able to depend on the people you always have before, and if you want to make your own life the way you want it to be, you'll have to do it alone, but not alone because you need friends (except they'll die, but you have to get used to that too). Adults don't always know best. They just get to say they do. And the people in charge aren't there to help or to guide, only to take, and if they are good they're too busy to get to everyone, and that's your future. Not "how much good can you do", but "how much bad can you make up for".

DREAM: a bizarre combination of our Scion game and internets. I distinctly remember saying "we are the worst heroes ever" and it involved a lot of running around - sometimes in circles - and flailing and shouting at one another. I remember that Dele and Slarti were there, as well as a RL friend from high school, Todd. Basically everyone was insane and we had to take turns preventing each other from doing stupid shit. Eventually we got back on track and tried to head off to finish our quest or whatever - "forward, not in circles!" I remember yelling. At one point I told Slarti to go grab Dele, who kept changing her name and was wandering off to do god knows what, but Dele was way faster than him and kept running up a hill and all this shit. Eventually Todd caught her and said something like "she can't if I break both her arms! :D" and everyone was like TODD NO ARGHHH *TACKLE* and in conclusion, worst heroes ever.

I also dreamt about a cat that gave back massages. That was so awesome. It just walked up and down your back and kneaded really hard.

<Jillian> John: *non-sexually devours Bobby* >:E
<Jeri> HAHA I enjoy that you specify
* TheRya does not meet Jill's eyes.
<Jillian> although I thought, "probably one can assume or at least hope that John's expression would not be full of teef were this sexual"
<TheRya> well... but John.
<Jillian> exactly
<Jeri> HAHA
<Jeri> hey
<Jeri> you don't know what bobby is into
<Jeri> he might like that
<Jillian> hahahaha
<Jillian> it would explain a lot about Rogue................ no it wouldn't
<Jillian> I don't even know what I'm implying there
<Jillian> vagina dentata? --no
<Jeri> HAHAH
<Jeri> are you
<Jeri> saying that not only does bobby have a vagina
<Jeri> it has TEETH
<Jillian> ROGUE. ROGUE.
<Jeri> because....well come on
<Jeri> oh, i was going to say it would explain a lot
<Jeri> so you should paste this entire exchange at bobbymun

Beowulf dies?!

Not as good as "best comicbook ever", but still pretty funny. /co/mrades are pretty smart when they want to be, they just... you know.

Auuugh. Auuuuuughh. I am trying to take off my bitchy pants, but there is another pair underneath.

I have an infernal drive within me to practice my dark arts of bitchcraft. :E

When Issue One goes down in "history", if it even does, it will be as "that fake thing that ascribed poems to poets that didn't write them". People twenty years from now who don't realize that because they failed to do the research and were ignorant of this literary prank will get silly grades. That's assuming people twenty years from now will even give a damn, though, or bother using it for papers or whatever.

People get too caught up in their scenes and take themselves too seriously. Who honestly writes something and thinks, "Yes, this will be a landmark piece of prose that scholars will discuss and debate over for centuries to come!"? Misinformation is inevitable, especially through the swath of history. We discover all the time that we've attributed art or literature wrongly, and we regularly screw up basic information through miscommunication and misinterpretation. One more poem? Not gonna matter.

It's especially hilarious when applied to modern free verse poetry. There's a reason I have no interest in publishing (assuming what I've written is even publishable!), and that is the utter lack of criteria by which to judge modern free verse by. The criteria is basically whether you like it or not. I'm sure editors and more experienced writers would disagree, and there are some extremely basic considerations that often apply (word choice, line breaks, rhythm) but even those vary wildly with the perceivable intent of each poem. To flip your shit and go "No, I didn't write that!!" just smacks of the need to cling to some kind of image. When you're one of a BUTTLOAD of poets included, how can you take this personally? Or seriously?

Do you really think you can control how people will see you after you're gone?

Does it matter?

All you can really do is throw your work out there, and hope for the best. People are going to misunderstand it, misinterpret it, and misuse it. Slipping one blatantly different poem in under your name is hardly going to confuse matters with intelligent readers, especially since the web publication is so massive. If Warren Ellis knows about it, how many of his readers now know about it? What do you get when you google "Issue One poetry"? People know. Don't fucking worry about people five or twenty years later. That's ridiculous and beyond your control. Fuck, you're not even internet famous, just forget about it and keep writing. That's all that matters.

Feel free to tell me how bitchy I'm being as 1/3 the mod team of #basementooc. No, really. If you have no idea what I'm talking about, make something up.

Let me also take this moment to remind people that #sagesooc once existed as the OOC room for the Sanctuary. Perhaps it is time to revive that! Channels splitting into separate groups is a natural and beautiful thing, like asexual reproduction. I do not especially care if #basementooc dies, since I am on like a billion other channels with more or less the same people. It is okay. Okay?

Aaaaaaah power outage bbl guys. Seriously, I'm at the library right now, life is very boring without electricity, though I'd rather lose the electricity than lose the water.

About Brokeback Mountain (movie, not book). Look, I'm pretty sure a complex plot was not, in fact, the point of the story. I think it was probably, uh, about emotions? And that given the time period, it was not just two guys "feeling conflicted" about having sex? I haven't SEEN the movie and am not a butthurt fan. I've only read the short story. Just... god. "This cheese makes a terrible wrench!" -- "Yes, ma'am, that's because it's a cheese, not a fucking wrench."

Warren Ellis is a filthy bastard who has tricked me into reading his book Crooked Little Vein which, for some reason, I was expecting to be a kind of noir/fucked up Constantine-ish story. NO IT IS NOT. Though Mike, the protagonist, is a "shit magnet" kind of in the same way Constantine is. Anyway, it's full of drugs, masturbation, saline injections, drugs, whores, and drugs. I will admit to having lolled a few times. But damn you, Warren Ellis!! I didn't really need to read about people mass jacking off to Godzilla movies¹! But now I have! And I can never be the same again!!

---

¹ This is the least gross thing that happens, really.

The No Man's Land novelization was ... actually quite enjoyable, with amusing character bits and insights. This is probably because it was written by Greg Rucka and not some random hack transcribing a movie. Just a few notes:

- Ugh, mention of Bane's "sexual appetites" bitch please I didn't want to hear about that.
- Holy crap, could Helena get the shaft any harder? NML sucked for her. This novel really drives that home.
- Apparently Mercy doesn't have the hots for Lex.
- Harvey in love with Renee is a complete teenager, what. It makes me want to put him into St. Jude.
- Ugh, the Joker sticking his tongue UP HARLEY'S NOSE, THEN IN HER RIGHT EAR wtf was that really necessary, Rucka?
- Cass :D :D :D

These aren't rules, more like feelings. When is it okay to hang out on our RP channel in the general OOC room WITHOUT being an active RP participant? SELECT ANY OF THE FOLLOWING.

• You're somebody's bff or significant other.
• You're funny and awesome.
• You're on hiatus! Especially due to work, school, stress, illness, everybody understands that, absolutely no question needed.
• You're a prospective RPer, feeling us out and hopefully not scared off by our frequently frightening conversations.
• And for all of the above EXCEPT hiatus: you don't plan on doing it for a long time, just a while. (Unless you're funny and awesome. Which if you are, we will TELL you so, a lot.)

If you spend ALL YOUR TIME talking about cons that practically nobody else in the channel is going to, NEVER role-play with any of us -- and we'd be reluctant anyway, because you suck, being incredibly boring and sparse of description or characterization -- and respond to criticism with shit like "if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all"

<annoyingsparkles>I WILL REALLY WANT TO BANHAMMER YOUR MORON E-ASS</annoyingsparkles>

Stop coming back. Stop talking. I'm 1/3 mods of the room and I have you on ignore. The only thing that saves you is that 2.3 people in the channel still talk to you, and that you only come back every once in a while (wtf?). Are you as bad as Su? No. Are you surprised that Njoki is black? ...... I don't know, you're never here, so you might be. Fine, that doesn't count, so no. Are you harmless? Yes. Sure. Fine. Fine. Stay. STAY ON IGNORE THAT IS HAHAHA. >:(

like, okay, my whole LIFE is on this laptop but I can't sit down and access it, just, everything's crap. >:E I can't sit for too long, and I can't sleep for more than a few hours at a time. the last time this happened (for the same withdrawal reasons), I got incredibly depressed before everything laptop = my distraction from the fact I am messing up my life. Yet the symptoms also make it difficult to go about doing responsible things.

when I was little I used to get MASSIVELY motion sick, a whole lot. Family vacations can be marked by when I threw up, and what color it was (my family is like that, okay). Eventually, and especially when I started driving, myself, this went away. On Sunday we drove up to Columbus and I came very close to vomiting-- my mouth started filling with saliva, and I was really not trying to NOT throw up, but somehow I just didn't. And was nauseous all the way up, and for all the driving between various stops. this week I've felt mildly nauseous pretty much all the time. as soon as I stop feeling nauseous I tend to eat because goddamnit I'm hungry, but then I go right back to feeling nauseous. This is slowly lessening. I think. tasks that require focus for any amount of time (basically everything I do on the laptop: tagging, iconning, chatting, browsing) also eventually cause nausea.

all I can do is wait for it to be over or to subside. I REALLY WANT abilify to work for me, because zyprexa makes me fat and that is unpleasant. suddenly gaining 15-20 pounds over 2 weeks when I've never had any significant amount of weight gain like that before was incredibly irritating, not least because my mom is like HFADLJFHDKJFDHl. At one point she told me that I looked four months pregnant. Actually, the comment was unfinished and went something like, "not even someone four months pregnant..." To note, I don't do shit, I basically sit on my ass all day, so it's not like she's being unfair, though personal comments like that aren't exactly helpful. However, my metabolism has always allowed for me to sit on my ass all day and do fairly regular snacking while maintaining a healthy weight, until now. and yeah, I am going to get off my ass at some point, because goddamnit I'm not buying a whole new wardrobe, I like my clothes.

I should just go running, since I'm so fhldjfhdsjhjdsh CAN'T FOCUS. We have an elliptical machine but it's weird. I think I prefer actually moving from one place to another. Having a goal/destination and being able to actually achieve it instead off keyboardmashing in woe is soothing.

David Bowie
David Bowie
David Bowie
David Bowie
Stephen Fry
Gordon Ramsay

;o;

Hell, while we're here, have this, too.

And this, you remember that, don't you?

*grumpysad jillpanda*

I hate people who ask questions even though they obviously already know the answer, but have to make sure it's ABSOLUTELY CLEAR, and sometimes to show off how awesome they are. It's bad enough to have people your own age doing it, but FUCKING CHRIST, the old lady and the two middle aged men should MAYBE be beyond this by now. The old lady also has a hard time saying anything at all without qualifiers, so she just witters on and on and nobody gives a shit. They also repeat themselves a lot, which I fucking hate in the context of a classroom, where I'm forced to be audience to their pointless yammering.

omg omg shut up, hfjsdfhsjdhfsjd

I've had friends who did that in high school, so I'm kind of sympathetic, I get where they're coming from, but it is a BILLION TIMES MORE ANNOYING in this case.